Alright, so not everything is always great and wonderful. That’s not a surprise, anyone who is always doing well is either lying or on something. We all have ups and downs. Lately, I’ve felt stagnant. I think it’s the extended winter and the wild weather swings we’ve had that are screwing me up.
It happens from time to time. When it does happen, I usually go back to the well. Strip out all the extra crap, take it all back to basics, and figure out how to get back on track. This time is a little different though. Time just keeps flying away and there isn’t that much to show for it.
Now, that isn’t to say that everything is bad. Last weekend was packed full of fun and I did make a step toward checking something off the list. On Saturday, I joined a group of my friends on the Indy Handlebar, pedaling around downtown Indianapolis while getting nice and liquored up. That night, I took Seven out to dinner to celebrate her finishing her dissertation defense, not telling her that it was also a surprise party for her.
The next day, Seven and I finally got to attend the NRA Basic Pistol course from Indy Gun Safety. The course was very well designed and run. The instructor was knowledgeable, passionate, and patient. The down side is that the previous week’s worth of rain had flooded the range we were going to use for live-fire, so that portion will need to be rescheduled. I’m looking very forward to that.
The weekend before that, I got to break down and clean up the 1958 Chinese SKS and the 1929 Mosin Nagant M91 I recently purchased. They haven’t been fired yet but I’m hoping to get out and do that soon.
Despite these high points, I still feel stagnant. My weight training has come pretty much to a standstill. There just always seems to be some new injury I’m dealing with and that just puts me in a really unfocused and generally crappy headspace. For some reason, the diet hasn’t been going anywhere, I’ve actually gained over the last week and it doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. I’m set to do the Spartan Race this weekend but I’m less than enthused. I feel underprepared and I’m a little nervous about aggravating or sustaining a new injury. It has me wondering whether I’ll really be able to do any of what I’m trying for.
I haven’t made much progress on any goals, either personal or professional. I think I’m just getting distracted by too many things all at the same time. I need to do something soon but don’t know what. I know it’s a mental thing. I have to overcome the inertia, pick a direction, and go with it.
Maybe pushing myself to make it through the Spartan Race will be the kick in the ass I need to get myself together. I guess we’ll see how that works out.
